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About MeWho is Jerrell John?

Just a person who knows what it feels like to keep losingAt 16, my world revolved around three things: Fortnite, jerking off, and lasagnaSchool? There was no room for itOne day, I found myself in the principal's office. Staring at my report card: 6 F's (all below 40s) and 1 ASpanish was super easy to cheatI don’t remember anything discussed during the meetingBut as I got up to leaveThe principal's words have stuck with me to this day..."You can't just do what YOU want. When you’re an adult, you’re going to be doing ALOT of things you don't want to do."I took this as the biggest disrespect to my autonomy possibleThose words felt like a slap to my teenage egoI decided then and there, I’d take success seriouslyI’d show everyone that success was possible on my own termsNo more rules
No more conformity
Just proving him (and everyone else) wrongWith newfound motivation, I sailed through high school with As & BsBut college?That lasted all of one month before I dropped outEntrepreneurship was callingIt promised:Work hard, Get rich, Be happy = SuccessI dove in headfirst.The next four years were a whirlwind of trial and errorRelationships sufferedFriends drifted away, confused by my obsessionRomantic connections fizzled before they beganI started and failed multiple businessesmostly freelance writingI chased every "get rich quick" schemeBought countless coursesStayed up late watching YouTube gurus promising instant successDevoured booksTried every productivity hackFilled journals with goals and affirmationsBut despite the hustle, the grueling 16-hour workdaysI remained stuck.Still living at homeStill dependent on othersThe final straw?Spending $10,000 on a "life-changing" mentorship programIt changed my life alrightBy draining my savingsRock bottom hit hardFour years of relentless effortAnd what did I have to show for it?An empty bank account and a head full of doubts.In that moment of despairSomething shiftedIf you’ve ever hit rock bottom (which you surely have a few times)You’ll know something interesting happens there down there...There’s no one left to blame but you.There’s nowhere left to look for problems but within.And instead of running from this truthI looked inwardThe problem wasn't the strategies, the market, or "not wanting it enough”The problem was meI'd been ignoring my internal bottlenecks, the subconscious patterns keeping me stuckMy mind was a scattered messJumping from shiny object to shiny objectI had no focusNo clarityI began a journey of self-understandingMeditation became my daily practiceHelping me develop a concentrated mindSlowly, I built systems to support my goalsI learned to metabolize experiences through creationNot just endless consumptionNow, at 22, I've discoveredMy principle was rightI can’t just do what I wantBut I can take on the responsibility of understanding myselfAnd building my life from the inside out (rather than outside in)External success follows naturallyMy mission now?To guide you through addressing & navigating your internal bottlenecksThe ones keeping you stuck where you areIf my story resonates with youOr you're tired of spinning your wheels despite your best effortsKnow this:You're not aloneAnd you don’t have to do it aloneSchedule a call to see if I can help you get to where you want to go

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On our call, we'll:1. Identify your specific bottlenecks2. See how they're affecting your focus3. Create a tailored approach to break throughNo fluffNo generic adviceJust practical steps to get you unstuckIn one hour, you'll gain more clarity than from months of spinning your wheels

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I help you achieve your goals through rewiring your brain and mindset, the same as I did for myself.You & Me hop on a call and figure out with specific questions what your bottlenecks are. Then I use my own experience and knowledge to make sure those bottlenecks are removed from your life.Does it sound like it would help you a lot? Then schedule a call with me down below⭣

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Accepting The Long Path of ChangePublished: July 14, 2024

I’m not really into basketball.But I know of Kobe Bryant.I also know that he has a quote that’s been stuck in my head ever since I heard it:“Everyone will tell you never put all your eggs in one basket. But what they won’t tell you is you can always figure out a way to make more eggs.”This is so fascinating.Initially, I took this as meaning I should tunnel vision on one thing without fear because I can use the place I get to, with my commitment to one thing, to get more “eggs”For example, you could tunnel down into business for 4 years to increase your wealth, which in turn gives you more reach and the ability to improve the other aspects of your life as you see fit.Logical, right?Yea, well, recently I’ve come to a different way of interpreting those words.Before I get to it, you might be thinking, “Why interpret it differently? Isn’t your initial one correct?”Yes AND No.Let me explain…Synthesize Grains of Salt
People ARE different.I’ve painfully gained a deeper understanding of this fact as of lately.What works for one person, may produce completely different results for someone else.And that’s exactly what I’ve found in relation to “putting all my eggs into one basket.”First off, there’s a lot of nuance left out in that quote (which is natural because… it’s a quote. Aka, short form).The most important piece of nuance that helped me align this advice to my individual experience is what the metaphorical basket is supposed to be.Ever since I truly started my self-education journey, I’ve approached learning from the lens of:Fortifying myself with skills.If I “knew” psychology, deduction, piano, copywriting, music production, & storywriting - I thought that would make me “smart.”Turns out… that’s a very, VERY flawed way of approaching learning, lol.This is why I’m so grateful for Dan Koe educating me on the importance of goals.TLDR:Goals are used as the lens/filter for experience.Meaning, if you consciously program your brain to hold the goal of, lets say “The Creator Lifestyle”, than the way you process & interpret your experience will be filtered through that goal.Walks will cease being pointless & turn into blissful internal vacationsSocial media will cease being a flood of memes & turn into a incredible source to learn anything you wantMornings will cease being the bane of your existence & turn into the beginnings of your adventures for the day.Back in my 1st two years of self-educating, my subconscious goal was to “be smart,” so mentally masturbating skills all day made sense to me.So bringing it back to Kobe, my new interpretation of putting my eggs in one basket is:Focusing my attention on one goal.Now, some might still say stuff like, “Yeah, but you should only be doing activities that serve that goal.”And I would disagree. At least for me personally.Fundamentally, filling your days ONLY with activities that relate or serve your goal operates with the assumption that you KNOW the path to your goal already.One of my top 10 values in life is adventure.So approaching my unknown territory (goal) as if I already know the terrain because I was given map(s) is quite foolish & UNEXCITING.“The Map Is Not The Territory” ~ Alfred KorzybskiAlso, the tunnel vision approach to goals makes a mistake in the fact that it’s too outcome focus.An adventure is LITERALLY about the journey from A to B.I want my life to be an adventure where I explore various unknown territories (goals), navigate the biomes within (interests), and use my curiosity to create a path from A to B.Not what I “think” or “know” the path to be from various maps given to me.Origins of My Emotions
Idk how to transition to this, lol.So let’s just get into it.I have a pretty core feeling of shame in relation to not being successful yet.Now that I think about it, this does play directly into why I feel the way I do about what I said about adventure prior.Even though i’m coming to terms with letting go of outcome & embracing the journey… it’s a process.A process that requires me to get to the root of what belief is causing me to feel shame.If there’s anything I learned these past two weeks… it’s to figure out the origins of my emotions.The origin provides a WELL of insights into current-day behavior.Plus, no behavior can be modified without first awareness of the behavior.The reason I call it a core feeling of shame is because somewhere within me, I believe that I have to keep “grinding” until I’ve built a secure foundation for myself.That’s flawed for two reason:Security is an illusion the mind makes up to protect me from the overwhelming uncertainty of life.Security is relative so my mind will continue to move the goalpost every time I make progress.A life where progressing for progression’s sake isn’t enough for my mind isn’t a life I want to live.I can pretty confidently deduce that the time period of my life with the highest probability of giving me answers is after leaving college.When I left, I very arrogantly told myself that I didn’t need these institutions—I’d create my own career.So naturally there’s dissonance because I haven’t yet.Emphasis on “Yet!”Logically, the only reason I could imagine feeling negative emotions (specifically shame) from that is because I carried an expectation of WHEN I’d achieve that goal.Maybe a few expectations at that.This is honestly the first I’ve journaled about this, so I’ll leave it at that since it seems like I’ve stuck at some gold due to my reaction to this.Music Developments
You may or may not know but I’m working on an album.Music is a passion I let go for an entire year back in 2023.It found its way back to me & now I don’t want to let it go!My friend & I are co-creating the album (he’s 7+ years into his music journey).Within a week and a half of deciding to create this album, my perspective on how difficult the tasks of building it will be rapidly fluctuated.And it’s still changing!SO fascinating how there’s a constant internal recalibration going on day by day.To give a brief update, once I realized I could focus solely on the songs rather than both songs & compositions, It gave me alot more clarity on how to move forward.Context: The album is Re:Zero Themed based (a light novel & anime). We’re looking at 14 tracks right now. 7 Songs (with my vocals & lyrics) & 7 Compositions. To achieve the desired feel of the album we decided on exploring different genres outside of our comfort zone.So I picked rock as my first domain to explore, and I quickly realized that my previous approaches (back in my first year) of arranging songs weren’t sufficient for me to actually catch a vibe and write lyrics to them.For the past few days, I’ve been making short loops and looking up various song structures.By doing this, I’ve ONCE AGAIN realized the necessity for simplifying the amount of ideas I put into one song 😭So basically I’m becoming obsessed with MAXIMIZING simplicity 👍🏾